Die to SELF

Praise the Lord for what He had being done for this past few day
why i say this?
because my Jordan broke down few days ago....(Jordan is the name that I given to my laptop)
I don't know about others, but for me, laptop is one of the important gadget in my life
i know that i am attach tom y laptop
because everything can be done with my laptop
and i knew that i am attached to it, and i need to get rid of it, because it distract my focus from God ( at times)
So,i fast, then later it bounced back...
so is like continuing fighting with flesh and Spirit
and come to one point, i pray that "God, i m tired of fighting with flesh, i surrender it to You and let You teach and guide what should I do."
after that, i stop fighting with that and live a normal life
You know what, prayer works!!!!
all is based on His perfect timing...
my Jordan broke down right on the time where there are a lot of works that need to be done
because He knows that i still stay on my old self where spending time wathcing PPS,surfing net instead of really do my works (praise God that i had cut down my time of watching PPS, but still...i am attach to it)
because of this break down, it really make me realize that i need to fast from laptop and PPS...
this is a best way to do it...
if my laptop still working, i will delay and delay....
and right now God take away my laptop, so that i can concentrate on my work..
I have the choice of overcome this with an easy way, but i didn't appreciate the opportunity
so i have to learn from the hard way....
the first few days after my laptop break down, it was hard for me...
So I leant die to self, die to your fleshly desire, attachment and focus your eyes on God
I think God will say:" This girl har, I have the easy way for you to overcome it but you missed it. So, right now I have to use the hard way to discipline you...you ah..."
haha...God is good...He is all mighty ..

i pray that unless i totally overcome this attachment, if not my laptop will not "heal"..
pray that i being able to overcome this  by God's grace and my laptop being able to work after i won over the attachment, in Jesus name.

Die to self, die to self, die to self....

Luke 9 :23

"then He said to them all,

"if anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me."