Finally, i received my parcel!!!!

yeah! yeah! yeah!!!
After waiting for 3 months, finally i received things that my mom sent for me from Malaysia...
i was so so excited when i received the parcel..
can't tell how happy i am...haha.....

opening....

ta da~ wah.......

what is this?

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you know why i am so excited?

v

because inside the bag is this!!!!

hahaha..my mom is so cute..she packed hair band for me~

i think, because she thought that i have long hair, need to tie it up..haha

bak kuk teh~

j

my lovely er gu bought for me those shrits~

my mom is so awesome, she packed everything carefully, she used few bag to pack a thing, scare that the thing will spoil..oh my mom so good!

oh, i am so blessed with my mom, my er gu and my precious little bro-JS, because he helped me to get one thing..hehe. 

oh, i miss home~

thank you mom, i love you, always~

Am I too YOung?

Two days ago, when i went to my first 400 level psychology class
i was shocked when i first enter the class.

This experience was really funny, and is fun when i recalled back

The story is like this:

when i first entered the class, there are people inside there waiting for class already
and once i step into the class, all of the student look at me with the " are you entering the right class??"  kind of expression...
and i was shocked by that, a bit panic, and quickly check my schedule whether i m entering the right class.
and ya, i am in the right class. and why people gave me that look?
 then i look around again, oh...i found out that all of them look like graduate student...indeed they are
because this is a combine class where undergraduate and graduate, both can take this class...
So....that time, i was the only undergraduate in there...
that was the first "bom" i received, after that when the professor go through the syllabus, i was like, oh my god..because he will be using the skill that i don't like the most subject which is MATH!!!!!
second "bom", and the third one is there is a lot of reading...ah..this semester i am taking 17 credit hours and i am working too. that time, i felt weak and don't know i can do that or not..... 
and this allow me to depend on Him more and more....( i guess this is a good thing too~ haha)

my situation is like a child go to an adult class...haha...just imagine that..it is funny. =D

from this little incident, i found that age is really not a matter
no matter how young you are, how old you are
you can still do all things THROUGH CHRIST
it is just the matter of whether you are teachable and willing to learn or not...

Am I too YOung for this class?
No i don't think so..
because i have Christ, my Father who will strengthen me =)

Philippians 4 : 13 : I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me. "

only through Him, i can handle all this...
i know myself, i can't do all this by my own...
Only Him, which is my source of everything to go through all this challenges...

All things work for Good

Praise God for His plan...=)
I was suppose to go out of town today, but something happen and didn't make it
i was a bit unhappy about it at that time
but God knows what He is doing
He had a plan for me
Because of that i have to thank to my friend and i really felt it was God...
because of that, i have a sweet fellowship with my Father... Jesus
nobody is at home except me..
i was so happy
because i can sit down and have my time with Jesus WITHOUT any DISTRACTIONS
Praise the Lord
Spend hours reading, seeking and praying...
i had a wonderful time
i am refresh right now...
i am wanting for this time for a long time, where no one is at home and i can pray out loud
finally, He gave me the oppurtunity
Thank you Jesus =)

 computer, Bible, journal, devotion books.

those are things that i cant without having when i am doing my quite time

we are called to be His disciple =)

Why Me?

Why Me??

what is your attitue when you said the words above?

i guess most of us say this with a complaining attitude.

Why I got fired?

Why I got diagnose with cancer?

Why my things got stolen?

Why I couldn't get the thing i want?

Why me...

Why me... etc.

when bad things happen or something wrong in our life, we start to complain, why is me... why is this and that...and why God treat me like that...

However, the words can have a different impact in your life when you stop complaining and start to say that words with a grateful attitude.

Why God choose me out of all the people in the world?

Why I receive this gift?

Why I receice this blessing?

Why I have what i have right now?

with the same words, it bring out two different outcome.

First one, you will live your life with bitterness

Second one, you will rejoice in every single day on earth

It's all your choice.

We are all sinner who deserve punishment from God

But, because He loved us so much, so He sent His only Son to die for our sin.

and Jesus took all of the punishment that suppose to fall on us

So that we have life and abundant blessing from God.

All because He Love us.

Inside and Out

wow, last month i only posted two post...
should discipline myself to write more often.. =)
However, last month was a challenging month...
I should say, in the very beginning of this summer, God reveal Himself, His Word, His love little by little and last month was the most intense, i guess...
throughout the summer, God works a lot of my inner self, personality, character...
He showed me how weak i am, how wicked i am, how sinful i am..
He convicted the area of my life that are not pleasing His eyes...
Conviction should be a good thing, it allow me to see which part i need to work om...
but when God works really works in my inner self, wow, that feeling is very intense...overwhelmed.
if i didn't ask Him for help, i will fall into condemnation forever, and could not come out from that...
when God reveal the area that i need to repent, the area of personality, attitude that need to put off
the feeling is so overwhelm and it was not pleasant at all...
i thought i have no problem in this area, but God knows...He knows everything of me
no even single,little spot can escape from His eyes.
when He bring the characters, attitude to light.. i was like " wow, i have this anger in me;i have unforgiveness, i have this self-fish thought, i have this wrong motive...'
one by one, God pointed out and say to me : " Jing, this is what you have deep in your heart. And this is the area that you need to bring it to light, repent. Come to Me and I will teach you how to be like Me."
day by day, He spoke through the Scripture about how to be like Christ...
To be honest, it's not easy to win victory over that areas...
I struggled for a while in that area...it took me weeks to overcome that...
during that process, i found that i couldn't do it by my own strength...
whenever i try to do with my own ability, the situation become worse...
that time, i learn to depend on Jesus...
let His love flow through me and allow Him to transform my heart...
My root problem is my heart...
and He teach me how to guard my heart and how to give my heart to Him...
He will not leave me alone to deal with that after bring out the problem
Indeed, He teach me how to overcome that...
In Him, i find strength...
once i found the key to overcome the darkness, i already win the battle
i still in the process of dealing with the battle
because i know, Satan will pull me down whenever i win over one area...
that why, i need to hold the Key tight in my heart ...
the Key will keep me safe...
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i remember, i had a revelation of we being the bridegroom of Jesus Christ...
as a girl, I m married to Jesus Christ, the Only perfect Man in the universe
i try to link what God spoke to me during this summer
i found that there is a link...
God revealed that Jesus will come to receive me as a bride in the Last Day
and before that, i have to be like Christ so that  i can stand in front of Him with no shame
1 John 2:28-" and now, little children,abide in Him, that when He appears , we may have confidence and not                         be ashamed before Him at His coming."
that's is the reason, why He works on my personality, character and attitute..
that's is the reason why He pointed out the dark spot in me...
He also teach me how to be a wife...
A godly woman...
Rebekah is the best example of how to be a godly woman from the Bible ( Genesis 24:12-20)
a woman that is godly inside and out
a woman that is beautiful inside and out
this is the great assignment for me on earth
By His love and mercy, i will continue my journey with Him
with all this, LOVE is the foundation of everything...
Because He love us, so He gave up His life for our sin
So, as the body of Christ, me too, have to show His love to people around me...
Love is the perfect bond of everything...
I can't love people with my own love, i have no love to love people
but,He fill me with His love, so that i can love others...
O Lord, may Your love fill my heart, so that i being able to love others and show others how great is Your love.

To know love, open your heart to Jesus

To show love, open your heart to others

Update! Update! Update!

PRAISE GOD!!! Finally, i had finish one subject for this summer...
oh thank GOD, i managed to go through that...
well, this also mean that one month already past....
wow....time move so quick...
CCJ203, Criminal, Crime & Justice, i will never forget what i learn in this subject...
It is a very interesting subject..manage to see the criminal justice system in US....
this subject added to my knowledge tank. =D
For this one month, i had busy with school work, and working...
every week had exam, and had to work during evening...
timetable is packed, it make me can't settle down and really write a post
However, thinking i have time to write share things that happen to me this month ( i have a lot to share though, =D), i still caught on another exam = HND 101 Personal Nutrition
this summer, the subjects that i am doing, really make me open my eyes...
not only aware of what is happening in the criminal system in US and around the world ( because we still need to study some of the crime trend in European country, such as Canada, British and so on)
personal Nutrition also make me health conscious...
know how to read the Nutrition Fact of the food that in a package, know how and what to eat to be more healthy, and know what is the nutrition value in the particular food...so and so...
this make me going crazy..haha
as in, if you follow what I am studying, you will be healthy, but sometime you will lost the joy of eating some "unhealthy" food based on the Dietary Guidelines...
So, what i can say is there is no bad food, but it is the way you eat, the amount you eat...
in order to not make you become too health conscious until there is nothing you can eat in this world,
you just need to follow this 3 principle in your diet, and you will be fine =)

Balance

Moderation

Variety

FireWork

4th July is Independence Day for United States
in the small city like Carbondale, they have an firework event
my housemate and I decided to go and experience the firework in US..(seems like i never see firework before) haha
one interesting thing in US is, they like to picnic, and they like outdoor activity.
they like to bring whole family out for some event...
such as this event, the will bring chairs, food and even BBQ in the place, just to watch firework...
so me and my friend, just cycle to the field, bought some snacks and drinks, sit on the grass, and wait the night come..
it was a different experience that watch firework in such a short distant..
just felt like wanted to reach out and catch the firework
it was very beautiful under the dark sky which full of stars...
Awesome.. ~